saturday,sunnyday

hey!!! long time dint write blog de... miss my blog? hehe actually i also dunno why so long no write de..... maybe every day sad kua sad till dunno wanna write wht de.....
First i dunno la i feel very (kei guai) ...
1st my x call me and tell me he broke up with his gf de name... (joe)
2nd my Xx call me and tell me he broke up with his gf de name..(ivan)

Ivan is my cousin , that time i with him feel he is my everything , event though at home no place to go both of us always smile laught...... ntg happend.... we stay together.... we spend less money... cause evry day teman him work , after back home.... harlo do joanne do this kind of things.... no right.... but i tell u joanne did lor.... really.... after 3 months he started to bit me fightting all thn at last he broke up with me... he is the only guy tht say bye to me,,,,,... i very hurt.... dam hurt.... using almost more than half year to recover..... first time... so wht can i get? nothing...... haix... dunno sad 4 wht today i just cht with him in phone..... in this half year i scared to see him, i scared to talk with him... i change my number, whn i saw him i walk another way go... but now...... i call him and cht with him... but i feel nothing..... if this part of blog (at tht time the people who saw this message sure feel happy) joanne recover de...... i wont cry because him de... ok ? i wanna thx to keong,liang the most!!! but both of u i also no contac de.... but hope u all happy with ur gf.....

Joe is a guy tht i noe frn club, is lin friends friend , tht night i remember till now we kisses each other... feeling in dancing..... and later togather..... thn happy but he always work work work.... whn can we meet night..... whn can we cht on the phone.... 15 min sometimes evnt neet to tell me wht time he will call thn i wait the time come.... r u tht busy maybe? both of us always club togather drink togater..... mostly all day also meet at night whn the day is without son de.....
but after tht broke y ? i also dunno y i broke up with him i still like him so?
i also dunno.... maybe i am aready scared of the pain so i let go.....
but i do miss u joe.....

haha joanne a joanne .... i also dunno y i will write it out but......... i dunno la....
maybe (THE WHOLE WORDL IS CHANGING WHERE AM I STILL?)
haha....

Dr.c long time i no write a report to u de..... the... endding is there de..... whn i stop may i now am i pass or fail.......?
haha......xxxxxx

but so how i still wanna tell out my feellings of today..... y means yes n meaNS NO.
joanne is happy kua... (y)
joanne is tierd (y)
joanne is blur blur (y)
is joanne ok? (n)
joanne still need warm? (y)
joanne still need pills? (y)
joanne rushing assignment? (y)
joanne feel lonely? (y)
joanne fat de? (y)

And i thing ntg will change abt who joanne r!!!! ok?

who am i hello Joanne la....

tht wht joanne alwyas says...

dr.c i will give my self 100%.......

hehe

Monday, tired day

Today dam tierd , really no oioi got la one hour lor...
but i think not enough for me y? cause i am a pig as u noe lor.... i need to slp for 10 hours per day but i dint have the main to do it.... yesterday actually i did write a blog but i close it ....y cause i dunno wht am i writting emo.... sad again but is ok my sick recover just like a roket.... i still give my self 80%.... cause u r always be my side....

today dam tierd rush to school kena mom scold again y i slp late to cls lor... haix.... but nvm cause today is the last day 4 monday cls de.... happy!!!
but no strenght to happy cause tierd lor....
after cls eat at ming tin... with kai lance yik.... eat chicken rice.... drink my favorite water air suam again.... blur blur whole day.... after tht chris call go to pyramid awhile but nvm even go in the complex... y cause i too tierd de slp at the car ... after tht go to puchong thn balikk rumah lor..... thn chris go find her sis and mom.....

the moment sleeping feel warm and xu fook....
thn , when homw slp again....
i really feel sad tht hurt u guys fighting.... really pls dnt because of me if is me...
pls tell me i will do my part walk out silently ..... okay....
i duwant anyone of my frnd r not happy ...... pls
smile=) thn u guys might be leng zai...

this is the first time i write out wht am i doing in the day well u guys should know if u keep readding my blog..... haha...
the way whn i going bck i pick up a call frn sgp my frnd .... tht who's like me.... i feel down whn all the things he repeat and repeat to tell me... i dunno wht guys r thinking
.......

i really hate it.....
hate it.....

today i am giving my self 60%

1 . tierd
2. sad to hear wht u guys did
3. sad cause on club i did such stupid things infront of
4. fuck of my self hate my self y always make u guys unhappy
5. feel useless
6. need help again

tht's all abt

pls ....... i am the girl who always not happy....
i dnt hope u guys too ....

smile=)

Sunday, raining day again