Finally i am bck............

I had been long time no write blog de....
i feel unhappy whn i write.. this few days dunno what am i doing... dunno thinking wht .... one words fan haixz assignment, relationship, life.... dunno lar... i wanna be bck to a child more cute, alot of ppl sayang,, and whn i wanna write a blog i still ask bck my friend to get bck my details u c la i am 4 getfull, useless enought de la.... no use de.... untill now i had been 34hours no slp de.... dunno la
everything dunno count bck long time no write blog de i tot i will change but to bad.....
at last i am back here to write and post to all ppl see tht how shamefull am i and how useless am i ....
i remember the last post is for my ex... untill now whn i saw him i still dnt dare face to face look at him....
dunno y everything had change to scared de.... but the las messagne i say i will wait.....
but i had did it i had try it but too bad no use.... but 1 thing i done and did is i had give up.;...... now i trust on everything need time to past and go....=) untill now i noe a guy in my new coll, but confuse lor.... haix.....now is midnight 2:34a.m another two hours de
what to do teach me help me.... can ?

Tuesday, sunny day

Now is tuesday, ivan birthday ....... i am here wishing u happy birthday.....
i know i say what also no use,, but i remeber tht time tht we break up i type a words on ur lap top is i will always wait you is really truelly.....anyway pass pass pass de i still miss u and take the pain on me ..........the answers is yes i am still waitting for you.

happy birthday
ivan lai

saturday,sunnyday

hey!!! long time dint write blog de... miss my blog? hehe actually i also dunno why so long no write de..... maybe every day sad kua sad till dunno wanna write wht de.....
First i dunno la i feel very (kei guai) ...
1st my x call me and tell me he broke up with his gf de name... (joe)
2nd my Xx call me and tell me he broke up with his gf de name..(ivan)

Ivan is my cousin , that time i with him feel he is my everything , event though at home no place to go both of us always smile laught...... ntg happend.... we stay together.... we spend less money... cause evry day teman him work , after back home.... harlo do joanne do this kind of things.... no right.... but i tell u joanne did lor.... really.... after 3 months he started to bit me fightting all thn at last he broke up with me... he is the only guy tht say bye to me,,,,,... i very hurt.... dam hurt.... using almost more than half year to recover..... first time... so wht can i get? nothing...... haix... dunno sad 4 wht today i just cht with him in phone..... in this half year i scared to see him, i scared to talk with him... i change my number, whn i saw him i walk another way go... but now...... i call him and cht with him... but i feel nothing..... if this part of blog (at tht time the people who saw this message sure feel happy) joanne recover de...... i wont cry because him de... ok ? i wanna thx to keong,liang the most!!! but both of u i also no contac de.... but hope u all happy with ur gf.....

Joe is a guy tht i noe frn club, is lin friends friend , tht night i remember till now we kisses each other... feeling in dancing..... and later togather..... thn happy but he always work work work.... whn can we meet night..... whn can we cht on the phone.... 15 min sometimes evnt neet to tell me wht time he will call thn i wait the time come.... r u tht busy maybe? both of us always club togather drink togater..... mostly all day also meet at night whn the day is without son de.....
but after tht broke y ? i also dunno y i broke up with him i still like him so?
i also dunno.... maybe i am aready scared of the pain so i let go.....
but i do miss u joe.....

haha joanne a joanne .... i also dunno y i will write it out but......... i dunno la....
maybe (THE WHOLE WORDL IS CHANGING WHERE AM I STILL?)
haha....

Dr.c long time i no write a report to u de..... the... endding is there de..... whn i stop may i now am i pass or fail.......?
haha......xxxxxx

but so how i still wanna tell out my feellings of today..... y means yes n meaNS NO.
joanne is happy kua... (y)
joanne is tierd (y)
joanne is blur blur (y)
is joanne ok? (n)
joanne still need warm? (y)
joanne still need pills? (y)
joanne rushing assignment? (y)
joanne feel lonely? (y)
joanne fat de? (y)

And i thing ntg will change abt who joanne r!!!! ok?

who am i hello Joanne la....

tht wht joanne alwyas says...

dr.c i will give my self 100%.......

hehe

Monday, tired day

Today dam tierd , really no oioi got la one hour lor...
but i think not enough for me y? cause i am a pig as u noe lor.... i need to slp for 10 hours per day but i dint have the main to do it.... yesterday actually i did write a blog but i close it ....y cause i dunno wht am i writting emo.... sad again but is ok my sick recover just like a roket.... i still give my self 80%.... cause u r always be my side....

today dam tierd rush to school kena mom scold again y i slp late to cls lor... haix.... but nvm cause today is the last day 4 monday cls de.... happy!!!
but no strenght to happy cause tierd lor....
after cls eat at ming tin... with kai lance yik.... eat chicken rice.... drink my favorite water air suam again.... blur blur whole day.... after tht chris call go to pyramid awhile but nvm even go in the complex... y cause i too tierd de slp at the car ... after tht go to puchong thn balikk rumah lor..... thn chris go find her sis and mom.....

the moment sleeping feel warm and xu fook....
thn , when homw slp again....
i really feel sad tht hurt u guys fighting.... really pls dnt because of me if is me...
pls tell me i will do my part walk out silently ..... okay....
i duwant anyone of my frnd r not happy ...... pls
smile=) thn u guys might be leng zai...

this is the first time i write out wht am i doing in the day well u guys should know if u keep readding my blog..... haha...
the way whn i going bck i pick up a call frn sgp my frnd .... tht who's like me.... i feel down whn all the things he repeat and repeat to tell me... i dunno wht guys r thinking
.......

i really hate it.....
hate it.....

today i am giving my self 60%

1 . tierd
2. sad to hear wht u guys did
3. sad cause on club i did such stupid things infront of
4. fuck of my self hate my self y always make u guys unhappy
5. feel useless
6. need help again

tht's all abt

pls ....... i am the girl who always not happy....
i dnt hope u guys too ....

smile=)

Sunday, raining day again

Friday .... scarry day but, sad cause also rainny day

Purple.......
y ?

cause i feel cold ,cold..... sad, sad.... down down.....
today is halloween day.... Some 1 make me sad ,some 1 make me down.... ,some one make me happy.... some 1 make me cry .... , some 1 make me smile in my heart but tears on face y? Gam dong lor..... at

*1st i slp late to cls....
* 2nd kena scolded by my mom....
* 3rd feel (an wei) long time dint have tht kind of feel, felling dying , need water .... sudent my Dr.... so good reach thr a bottle of water, a assignment done.... feel happy got ppl sayang.....
*4th whn to cls still got lence ask and sayang happy too...
*5th scarry cause ah yik driving ngeeeeeeeeeeeeek!!!!!!!!!!! still got little bit bom!
*6th cold cold de ...... but lucky Dr. giving me a jacket.... and got lence help me cover wind....
*7th feel down down 1 ..... feel sry to a person... i noe tht u want me happy !! as i noe tht u also unhappy!! but u just act like ntg cause u want me to be happy!! i feel warm .... nice.... happy and everything frm u .....
*8th yes?anything joe i really wanna hear tht anything from u ,but i duwant i scared whn i hear anything tht i cannot take it i will feel sad , down ... but i miss it... i dunno do u read or had a look on my blog but any way wish u happy with ur gf.... yes... i miss u.... so? can i do anything no!! just unhappy all the way... but is ok !!! i am fine thx .... for ur treating and make me grow....
*9th cnt eat any things just (tun tun tun) my teeth very pain a.... but i also feel happy la .... noe y cause i can gam fei hehe!!! i wanna hit target on 40kg..... tell me tht i can if u support....
*10th dunno, everything dnt ask dnt care.... i learn 1 thing...

DONT ASK QUESTION!!
DONT LISENT TO PPL THT CLOSE OR GOOD TO U!!
DONT THINK JUST DO IT!!
TIME MANAGE!!
SHUT UP WHN I NVR ASK!!
WHN I WANNA TELL I WILL BUT DNT ASK MORE .....

issit good to learn it or???
haix.... i really dunno la....

wow is been 3 days no hand up my report to my dr tim....

Tuesday , shit wht i did i 4get... but haha actually i remember...
70%
wednesday,club tierd dying..... but still had 80% cause u're beside me...
thursday, erm... tierd to watch movie ,see marion ,feel funny....... ntg much normal normal...... so i give my self 60%....

i wanna tell u.....
i love romance ,
i scared boring,
i scared lonely,
i love surprise,
i hate crying,
i need warn,
i need care alot,
so.........
noe wht to do ?
or dunno nvrm....
i will wait....

understand & really feel dam fucking sry abt today +10000000 of sry!!!!

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Monday, Sunny day

Hey !!! yoyo first time i write blog in summer & sunny days.... means wht ler? Means tht my % today is high lor ..... hehe..... last few days i dint post .... 1st because i am too down no energy to write down... morning cry afternoon cry ....... no eat no drink....... 2nd i really feel tht i am too stupid... totaly blank in my mine..... 3rd heart broke ..... haix.... dunno wht to say abt my self lor...

OKAYSZzzz.... i write down my marks for past two days....

Saturday , raining days........ (10%)
Sunday , okay abit de cause not the whole day raining........ (50%)

See improf alot ler thx to some 1 Dr.xxx..... i noe event though i dint pick ur hp call but as long as i still noe tht ur a responsible Dr... lor hehe.... really sry abt my stupid ways to let u knoe hope u wont feel tht i am a stupid Dai b clients in ur world lor hehe.....

And my dear ngong ngong lence a...... Why u think u in my hear is like this de ler..... Y think so much negetive ways wor.... u really , Really misunderstand de la... my dear...... i dnt mean it tht way ok? dnt think tooo much i am so happy tht u always care me... u in my heart is perfect and nice person lai de la..... think all sot sot things u really a...... lolx...... dunno wht to say la.....

Dr. c..... sry abt i dint pick up ur calls....
sry abt make u worry....
sry abt nvr reply ur sms.....
sry abt let u wait.........
sry abt nvr c my hp got rang bo......

(ITS BECAUSE I AT CASINO LOOSING MONEY A ... LOST UNTILL HALF DEATH ON THR DE...... *NGO CHA HM DO XU DOU YOU LOOK LOK SAN JOR LA)
so i nvr bother abt my hp lor.... some more no credit jor a.....

haix,..... my whole body no money dam kelian u good la eat HOU YEH, drink HOU YEH.....
i dont care a..... u dnt so tok sek a........ must treat me 1 ma.... lolo although i am ur patiens also got a cup of coffe kua at (the place u always go de la) Ha...Ha...
i ntg de la....... still in recover moment but is cover as fast as it can be de lor......
thx alot

2day i will give my self 80%/.........

thx for Dr.c ,my dear lence........ ex............

at last give u guys a smile face sin =) hehe

night night ........

*muaks*

Cioaz........