wednesday,again raining day

Today i am chossing blue color to write ,cause today i feel blur blur down down.....
i really very tierd o today... blur blur go school , blur blur go cls..... thn blur blur go lacoste buy present..... spen so much money...... hiax....first present in this month bonia purse now lacoste pls la u all dnt birthday anymore i scared de...but 2 dAY dunno y sudently so down ........ reach home, get a phone call ... i am aready very tierd still like getting scolded.......... sad ....T.T
thn i cried i feel very san fu........ dunno y suddently think something unhappy but very (kei guai)
i also dunno wht i think ......... thn lence call me cheer me up...... christ cheer me up........ sweatney cheer me up......... seng cheer me up....... but dunno y still down......... cried....... and thn slowly slowly ntg de.....because i am luckly to have a docter to cheer me..... beside me.... haha....... i give u 100++ kisses....lence i really very happy whn u call me and so care me ....... thx....... muaks!!! lence didi u younger thn me , but i feel i useless thn u how? this made me sad too u noe.....? haha

today my sickness slowly came back but, suddently go away........ because of u doctor.......
i really feel like happy so much , cause whn i down got doctor who was only got me 1 client and can care me so much...... today actually i think bck how i pass by all my sadness.... i miss bck him but , i hate him....

AS LONG AS>>> (WE HATE LOVE, WE LOVE HATE) <<<<<<<<<

isiit the truth ??? i think so i really think so........ i hate my self but i need to love my self..... thn i hate him should i learn to love him bck ? i think no lor...
and i am unhappy because my b'day is comming.... actually i miss last year birthday alot got (yin hua), (99 roses), (fat gok chan),(big bear bear),(sui jing lin).... LIANG really miss tht wonderfull b'th day tht u celebrate to me..... i will nvr 4 get i will keep it in mind 4 ever..... i am sry tht i dint accept u .... but i aready try my hardess but still cnt ...... but i dunno y i always miss it ..... and while i was missing i cried down..... sad..... i really very scared a doctor C .....
how ler.........

wht can i do because of this i cried alot de.......
so today i still give my self 50% ngam ngam pass.....
u noe y ? cause whn i sad tht time it was only 10%.....
but whn my doctor come make me laught (TERUS) up to 50%......
hehe........ Mr. doctor C...... is a good and nice doctor o...... but sry guys tht is only my individual doctor........

Right? Doctor c ??? hehe